Power is a scary thing in the hands of certain individuals. No. I’m not going to be writing a political post. I am said scary person who has just been empowered in the most unsuspecting way.
Let me enlighten you.
In my last post, Ode To A Mama Who Just Had Her 2nd Baby, I was really impressed with my niece’s attitude after having her baby.
And in the comments section of this post, a fellow blogger,WebMDiva, who rocks by the way, made this comment, “Her Snapchat caption life!” and something magical happened inside my little SAHM head. I jokingly responded, “Thank you. Yeah you can pretty much sub in anything for “popped out a baby” and it still is a rockin message.
Just replied to a comment on my blog bitch. Look at me now!- Yeah.. that feels right.”
And it did feel right. And the more I thought about it, the more right it felt.
See, the truth is, I have been struggling a bit. Struggling with being a stay at home mom. Struggling with “just” being a stay at home mom. I know, I know, there is no “just” that logically fits in front of that. Any stay at home caretaker knows that there is a lot that goes into being home with your little ones day in and day out. Every. Single. Day.
Day after day. Week after week… I digress.
To fill this “void” I have manifested in my mind, I have taken to painting, creating a blog, trying to get published, looking for any and all kinds of remote work for which I would be qualified and not so qualified. But, I don’t need to do that.
Yes, filling the void in my bank account would be great, but there is no “void” that should exist for stepping away from my job that I loved and staying home with my little girls, whom I love more, for the preciously small opportunity that one can do such a thing.
And now, when I look at my life through this new lens, I feel empowered.
Take a look for yourself.
That’s a way better mentality than, “Ahhhh, I have to run the sweeper AGAIN???”
How about this?
For whatever reason, this works for me. At least right now, on this day, it works.
It’s not any different than it is with the kids. Each day brings new challenges, new mental blocks, and for right now I found a way to view my life as a stay at home mom in a new and empowering way. We all need that from time to time. A fresh outlook without someone telling me how “precious” this time is, or how “lucky” I am. I recognize those things, daily, but sometimes, ya just need
wine something more.
For now, I can fill in blanks of “I just—- Bitch. Look at me now,” and view my seemingly menial task and find the awesomeness in it, and feel good about it when sometimes it’s just too easy to get overwhelmed and bogged down by it and toddler mania.
So with that being said,